Friday, 12 August 2016

Happiness

Hapiness is one's top priority. I always believe when one is doing something, happiness must be present. 
I recently just lost someone very important and special to me. But why did i lose him? I didn't felt happy, and that was enough for me to make up my mind and let him go. 
Sure I've had many exes before, but they were all for fun. This person gave me my first heartbreak, he is able to make me cry just from the emptiness. 
I miss our intertwined fingers, bonecrushing hugs, our sweet kisses. random convos. our weird combined laughter, late nights sleepovers, simple just his presence. I kept imagining him, here, beside me, hugging me, stroking my hair, letting my cry and telling me that everything's going to be fine. 
No matter how much i think, i don't regret my decision because i was truly unhappy and everyone could tell. Constantly fighting, shaky relationship, tears almost everyday, neglecting my studies, stressed everyday. The overpossessiveness, the temper, the immaturity, the wrong logic, the feeling of suffocation, the feeling of being trapped, all this just adds up to not only mine, but his unhapiness. And that's making both of us suffer. So, what's the point anymore? 
Honestly, I do miss him and of course I still want him because I still care for him and love him. But i believe in fate, if we're meant to be, we'll meet again. My best friend reunited with her first love, months after they broke up, and turns out they still love each other very much. 
I'm really grateful for everything. His care, his love, his support and most importantly the memories. I won't forget him that easily. 
Be positive, be happy. 

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