Our Story

Remember how we met?
I remember the very first time meeting you. Morning, you borrowed my locker. You had an infatuation on one of my best friends. After school, you waited for me to get back your things from my locker. I confronted you about my best friend. We talked, we laughed, we clicked.
Later that night, I was surprised to hear your name again and furthermore, I was going to meet you again. You were so quiet yet you somehow had a charismatic aura around you. And that impelled me towards you.
You drew on my hand, dragged me to buy water with you, shared about your favourite story book with me, helped me wear watches, walked beside me when I was lonely, waited for me even though you wanted to go home, teased me with balloons, initiated a chat with me.
We met more and more frequently. And we somehow began to like each other. You bought balloons and all sorts of delicacies for me. Even spent $60 on our rings with each other's names engraved on them.
You took the first move and asked me to be your girlfriend 5 times and i eventually said yes.
18/01/2016 - 20/09/2016, we've been through ups and downs. The amount of times we fought was uncountable. The amount of harsh words, tears and hugs were uncountable too.
However, it all came to an end. It was getting too tiring, and more like a routine. I just didn't feel special or happy anymore. I doubted myself so many times but someone then said this to me.
"if you even have thought about breaking up, it just proves that you don't love him as much anymore." And I found that incredibly true.
But since the day I let us go, I've been regretting it more and more as days pass by.
How I wish I hadn't give up.
How I wish you were still here beside me.
How I wish that we'll be able to find our way back to each other.
I figured out that I've not only lost my boyfriend. But I lost my best friend, my smile, my happiness altogether.
"When you find someone who only has eyes for you, eyes that won't roam around, keep him and never let him go."
He was and still is the most amazing person I can ever deserve beside me. He knows me inside out. Cared for and loved me like no tomorrow. And I broke him.
He deserves the best the world can provide him and I'm not sure if I'm still the right person for that.
He deserves to recover that glint in his eyes whenever he's happy. That sparkle and glow in his eyes whever he looks at something he loves. I want him to be happy even though I'm not.